In Which Tara Has a Bit of a Pout
(The super strong Tara will return after this brief panic attack)
Yeah, so...I'm freaking out again. It's the money thing. Stomach is clenched and mind is racing with What can I do, what can I do? I'm being proactive. I'm doing what I can to keep my name out there, as has been suggested, and I'm trying to make contacts in other cities where I may also be able to find voiceover work.
But see? You can't just send your demo off into the webisphere to any talent agency you might have found thanks to a Google search. They don't take unsolicited demos. And since I'm not already a big deal famous person, they're not looking for me to do vo's for them. And how do I make them find out about me if I can't just send them my stuff? How does a girl get a break these days?
Yes, I have taken meetings and talked with wonderful and talented people, all of whom expressed love and support and admiration and all kinds of fantastic, esteem-building things. And there are potential things that should eventually grow and blossom. Just...not right now.
So right now I have to make things happen and right now I just feel all defeated and low and waaah, poor me. I guess what's hard is continuing to get lovely emails from former listeners who, like me, don't understand the thinking behind my being laid off. I'd like to share one of the nicest letters I've ever received from anyone, ever:
Tara,
I have been reluctant to write and share with you my upset and frustration about your missed presence on 94.7. I am not one to write any public figure, but I felt a strong pull to send you a short message.
I am in the process of getting more deeply involved in the challenging and changing world of radio and journalism. So with my growing interest in these fields I have, inevitably, sought out strong female role models in print, television, online, and radio. Your show was a great pleasure and encouraging for this awkward girl trying to find her place in the world.
I miss the energy you brought to that station, both as a wonderful DJ, and positive female influence.
Thank you, Tara.
This fabulous person also sent an email to the station, which was probably disregarded and none of the higher-ups will ever know about it. Or any of the other wonderful emails that were sent, I suspect.
I just want to run outside and scream up to the heavens, "HELP ME!!!!" But all that would get me is weird looks from the neighbors and a sore throat. And I need the throat to stay gold right now.
I do work on taking in all of the good feelings from the emails and messages and keep reminding myself that this will pass. I just hope I'll be able to return all of this goodness in some way again. And, you know, SOON! Please God, please please please make it soon. *impatient Taurus woman*
(we now return you to your regular, ass-kicking Tara, already in progress)
Yeah, so...I'm freaking out again. It's the money thing. Stomach is clenched and mind is racing with What can I do, what can I do? I'm being proactive. I'm doing what I can to keep my name out there, as has been suggested, and I'm trying to make contacts in other cities where I may also be able to find voiceover work.
But see? You can't just send your demo off into the webisphere to any talent agency you might have found thanks to a Google search. They don't take unsolicited demos. And since I'm not already a big deal famous person, they're not looking for me to do vo's for them. And how do I make them find out about me if I can't just send them my stuff? How does a girl get a break these days?
Yes, I have taken meetings and talked with wonderful and talented people, all of whom expressed love and support and admiration and all kinds of fantastic, esteem-building things. And there are potential things that should eventually grow and blossom. Just...not right now.
So right now I have to make things happen and right now I just feel all defeated and low and waaah, poor me. I guess what's hard is continuing to get lovely emails from former listeners who, like me, don't understand the thinking behind my being laid off. I'd like to share one of the nicest letters I've ever received from anyone, ever:
Tara,
I have been reluctant to write and share with you my upset and frustration about your missed presence on 94.7. I am not one to write any public figure, but I felt a strong pull to send you a short message.
I am in the process of getting more deeply involved in the challenging and changing world of radio and journalism. So with my growing interest in these fields I have, inevitably, sought out strong female role models in print, television, online, and radio. Your show was a great pleasure and encouraging for this awkward girl trying to find her place in the world.
I miss the energy you brought to that station, both as a wonderful DJ, and positive female influence.
Thank you, Tara.
This fabulous person also sent an email to the station, which was probably disregarded and none of the higher-ups will ever know about it. Or any of the other wonderful emails that were sent, I suspect.
I just want to run outside and scream up to the heavens, "HELP ME!!!!" But all that would get me is weird looks from the neighbors and a sore throat. And I need the throat to stay gold right now.
I do work on taking in all of the good feelings from the emails and messages and keep reminding myself that this will pass. I just hope I'll be able to return all of this goodness in some way again. And, you know, SOON! Please God, please please please make it soon. *impatient Taurus woman*
(we now return you to your regular, ass-kicking Tara, already in progress)
1. anything by Nirvana. I immediately turn off my radio when i hear Mr. Cobain.
2. Smashing Pumpkins: anything but 1979 and cherub rock sucks. Not a fan of Billy's voice.
3. lily allen "the fear" hate that song
4. John Mayer "waiting on the world to change" I love his blues stuff and his live cd's crazy good but every time i hear this i imagine 40 pre-teen girls screeching "I LOVE THIS SONG!" so i hate it.
5. Jason Mraz "i wont hesitate" Dont know if this is the actual name but same goes for this song with john mayer.
6. i like hotel california....
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